I think my blog post title really sums my feelings from the evening:
A Good Fucking Never Hurts & Always Helps.
Maybe that isn't always true, but I think it might be (for me)!
It was just a sexy night. I rarely drink, but last night I got nice and buzzed and really felt like my inhibitions were lowered (not that I needed them to be- but it was still fun). My friend and I made out and groped each other, and after not too long, I took him into a room. Delicious oral sex, lots of coming, and lots of pounding ensued. It was so fun! And such a release, so cathartic.
And then coming home with J, and doing that again complete with dirty talking and my Hitachi. Sometimes I feel like my life is so delicious, it just makes me want to laugh and cry.
And then I wake up the next morning, after a kind of crappy day yesterday, and think to myself: I fucking got this. I am ME and I'll do what feels right! And if it's being a kick-ass therapist who has different ideas about sexuality and relationships and a different way of operating and a different environment she wants to work in, so be it. I got this.
K:
ReplyDeleteI have been blessed to meet this "ME" and indeed you will be kick-ass, as a therapist or at whatever vocationally you do. You are awesome, just as J is. For a non-monogamous couple, you two are certainly soul mates, and I think you will be connected with each other for decades.
But I am always glad to read the thoughts of a woman who totally "gets" and celebrates the personal therapeutics of sex. That release - physical, emotional, and mental - IS so cathartic and necessary to human health. The fact that we get so twisted up about it causes agony the world over.
You have discovered the health properties of vitamin "F". Take your vitamins every day you can, for maximum health and vitality. :-)