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J and I had the
amazing opportunity and privilege (money, time, etc) to take a
spontaneous trip to Maui to celebrate his graduation. We got here a
couple days ago and will be here for another 12 days. I can't quite
believe we get two whole weeks here. Amazing.
intentionally planned on staying on the south part of the island so we
could be closer to the nude beach (Little Beach), because I just
absolutely love being naked in the sun, and J doesn't find it half bad
either ;) I love the assumption that I go off of when at Little Beach:
that nakedness is embraced by all of the sunbathers there, that it's not
weird or shameful, but something to welcome and embrace and enjoy. My
body is mine to enjoy. Naked.
days at the nude beach and we have been completely befriended by the
locals, including one gem/character of a man. On our second day, he came
over to our spot on the beach and asked if I would do him a favor and
walk on his back. I was super nervous- I have never given anyone an
ashiatsu massage. But I was game, and he gave good instructions, and I
did a good job (according to him). Because he was so appreciative, he
gave me a massage (with his hands not his feet). He told me that I was
really great at giving massage because of how "in my body" I am, and he
commented on how "plugged in" J is and how joyous and big his energy is.
After rubbing my back and shoulders, he said he was going to feel my
"etheric body" (like my aura, I think). After a few minutes of his hands
above my back, he put his finger right into the sorest part of my right
shoulder (it's been chronically sore for a few months), and told me how
that spot is associated with the heart and freedom. (I'll take that and
chew on it for a while- sort of like reading my horoscope...)
else we go, I put on a thong bottom with a bikini top. I love it. I
love my ass, and I love the way it looks in my thong bottoms, and I
could care less where I am walking around when I wear it. Embracing my
ass and my near-naked ass, and giving up shame.
we were in our condo complex's hot tub, and it was by far the most fun
night so far, in terms of who we met there and what the conversation was
like. There was a family with adult children, and a group of three gay
men. Once the family was gone (they made it clear they were friendly but
more conventional), the conversation took a turn for the better, and we
found out that the group of gay men also frequent Little Beach (they
had also been there the past couple of days) and we had plenty to talk
and laugh about together. They found out that I strip, after one of them
made a comment about my ass and my thong. I wanted to tell them about J
and I being open, but I had this weird thought process about not
wanting to be looked as a "weirdo" by people part of a community that
has (typically) thrown poly people under the bus. I don't know how they
would have responded (and I still have ideas that they may have
been a triad), but it was the first time I have found myself caught in a
weird space of being with people that I felt pretty comfortable around,
and yet not having the best idea as to whether they would be
open-minded to my own marginalized community.
am so grateful that J and I are able to be here and relax together and
enjoy each other here. 88 and sunny, breezy, coconut milk smoothies,
nude beach, hot tubs, walks, sex (I happened to wake up to myself riding
J in my sleep- I guess he's not the only one who is a sexy sleeper.
ha!)... it's a blessing. And getting to experience the alternative
communities here is also awesome.